re- "I'm still cutting myself"

[hollywoodhunny91]

Well after you gavce me that advice, I tried all of it,but I still did it.

But, this time I didn't make myself do it,I was sleepwalking.


I woke up but I still hurt myself badly.


When I woke up I droped the knife and nearly cut my toes off but not cuz' I wanted to.

Luckily I moved.


I fell asleep on my counter but before that I thought

"Is this what i really want?Do I really wnat to kill myself?Why do I do this?"

Then I passed out and fell asleep.

But I woke up at 3 am and went upstairs.

I think that I'm upset about somtin' and i can't figure it out.
It could be that I don't have much friedns or people that care about me,but there's alot more reasons I'm upset.

I know that if I find the reason and try to solve it I'll be fine but i don't kniw the reason...

BTW I'm eating now so being anorexic is somtin' in the past.


I know life gets tough sometimes and you just want a break, But trust me. it isn't the right thing to do. Not only will you suffer for it but so will your family. My sister recently tried something similair only more extreme. Right now she is in the hospital with round clock survailence (sp?) I feel like crap. I didn't go to school today and the only time her family was permited to visit was for an hour. We spent all day getting stuff ready for her and trying to make her comfortable for the time she has to spend there. We had to wait for four hours in the waiting room. Then it was our turn to visit and she told them she didn't want to see us. I didn't even get to see her. If nothing else works for you, think about your family. Think about how they will feel not ever having another chance to see you. Not ever having a chance to say goodbye. Please don't hurt yourself any more. Please remember what I told you.

Also, it is proven that cutting yourself releases endorphins which make you happy. But a great alternative is excersize. Also, if this is a recurring thought, you need to tell your parents before it is too late. They can get you help. Please please don't make your family go through this. If you attempt suicide and your parents find you almost dead, you'll end up in the pshyc ward. You'll have to go through years of treatment. If something worse happens your family and friends will pay for it. Please tell your parents. If you act right now you'll only have to under-go some counseling and take anti- deppressants that will help you feel happy without thoughts of suicide. Medicine will make life alot easier, not death. Please tell them nowww! :'(

P.S. If you do get medicine, ask if you can get something other than Zolof, studies have shown that suicide thoughts increase with it.

P.P.S. I know I'm not an advice columnist, but I just haddd to answer this question.

[I Learned From You]

Its good you didn't try to hurt yourself. But still i'm really worried about you! I don't want anything bad happening to you! Youre an awesome person. ANd i bet you have loads of friends! Just go to the mirror smile and see all the awesome things you can be and what you can accomplish!

[tashismashi]

I think you really need to talk to someone you can trust about this.

Maybe your family, teacher, anything because it is getting very serious. They could prescribe you with medicine or something for your night problems but you still need to get all your feelings out.

Have fun with your friends and cherish your happy moments. This should cheer yourself up.

Have fun in life... hope this helps!

Tasha xx

[disney1rocks]

since you don't wan't to cut yourself(i hope) then stay away from penknifes, knifes, so on. remember that cutting yourself won't help you escape your problems. you should definitely talk to your parents or ppl you can trust. just think abt how much the ppl who love you will have to go through if you end up in hospital?

pls dun cut yourself, its not the best way to solve a problem!

[xx_mileyrocks_xx]

Talk to some one about this, and as Morgan said, take anti-depressants.

[cookie monster]

omg...im soo scared for u guys!